The woods, the quiet of the wind around you, and the sunshine on your face, this is all I will ever need.
now add children and an important job title
all of the above are contributing to my personal anxiety levels as I sit here on my computer at home. In 42 days I am heading out to the Poconos in the East Coast for a summer as a Director of Evening Events at a summer camp. and. I . am. freaking. out
You learn so much about yourself when you sign up for an intense challenge or change, in my case I welcomed the total freedom of heading to another state and , in effect, disappearing for a few months. It has been a difficult year and I look forward to the prospect of immersion in a life that is not ordinarily my own. But that was when I was planning 6 months ago, now that it's almost here I have that feeling that 5 year olds get when you make them eat broccoli. " I know this is good for me but I don't wanna!"
It is a lesson in grace, strength, and humility when you join a new community, and find yourself the only newbie. Personally, I always come in with feigned confidence, trying to assure myself more than anyone else that I do belong here. Then there is the inevitable moment where it is all too clear to everyone that this is a brand new experience for me. It seems to me that all of the elements of the new job that scare you the most tend to all come together and test your inner poise right off the bat. I always falter at first. I have taken to looking forward to that moment of utter failure because it means I can move on from my insecurities and just do my job. I need to fall hard and large as an ice breaker in order to get out of my own way and just proceed as a professional and grown up.
so here's to falling.
now add children and an important job title
all of the above are contributing to my personal anxiety levels as I sit here on my computer at home. In 42 days I am heading out to the Poconos in the East Coast for a summer as a Director of Evening Events at a summer camp. and. I . am. freaking. out
You learn so much about yourself when you sign up for an intense challenge or change, in my case I welcomed the total freedom of heading to another state and , in effect, disappearing for a few months. It has been a difficult year and I look forward to the prospect of immersion in a life that is not ordinarily my own. But that was when I was planning 6 months ago, now that it's almost here I have that feeling that 5 year olds get when you make them eat broccoli. " I know this is good for me but I don't wanna!"
It is a lesson in grace, strength, and humility when you join a new community, and find yourself the only newbie. Personally, I always come in with feigned confidence, trying to assure myself more than anyone else that I do belong here. Then there is the inevitable moment where it is all too clear to everyone that this is a brand new experience for me. It seems to me that all of the elements of the new job that scare you the most tend to all come together and test your inner poise right off the bat. I always falter at first. I have taken to looking forward to that moment of utter failure because it means I can move on from my insecurities and just do my job. I need to fall hard and large as an ice breaker in order to get out of my own way and just proceed as a professional and grown up.
so here's to falling.